to be the cause of
some of that sadness saddens,
suffocates, stifles.

i am out of place
in my own space, so i move,
shift, and wish to fit.

tonic with n and v

laughing loosens the
fist, the fear. remember that:
laughing shakes it loose.

anxiety

chest of rubber bands
tensely wound round each other;
if they'd snap, i'd breathe.

sigh

a swamp of a fight;
quicksand. kicking, screaming, and
only sinking more.

Mom's here -- Outside In

what makes it so hard
to be myself with the one
who's known me longest?

PSYCHO!

psychodynamic,
psychosexual, psycho-
social, psycho, psych!!!!

vidhya

we watch chris del bos-
co crash, burn, and we scream, laugh.
sad to know she goes.

portugal?!

dreaming out loud, the
three of us, of wine, of beach-
es, a rocky coast.

Mom

to negotiate
her age, illness, self; to know
which is which is which.

when it rains

sometimes it does, in
fact, pour: kids flail, pipes clog, pap-
ers don't write themselves.

Nothing

nicky sleeps, purrs and
it's okay not to do a-
nything else tonight.

After class ...

i don't understand
what it is they don't under-
stand. smarter? dumber?

Aaaaargh!!!! Reply to an email, boss man!

as if these questions
don't measure up, don't matter
enough to answer.

grace

maybe grace is hope
manifest; possible peace,
likely, likely love.

finished "The Lacuna" -- Barbara Kingsolver

a lacuna, a
cenote, a hole that makes
all the difference.

XXI Winter Olympics

snow drifts, pizza, wine,
johann olav koss on the
mind; people ARE fine.

Moonstone -- Done!

more snow, a moonstone,
a walk, some wine, laughs; home, and
meet the moonstone's end.

Atrophy

snow snow snow snow snow
snow snow snow snow snow snow snow
snow snow snow snow snow

(54.9 inches, to be exact)

Flurries

Freshly stirring snow,
shoppers scurry, buses hurry,
emails, plans flurry.

Ice dams

elongated ice,
crystal bolts, frosted lightning;
the city slows, too.